Do I deserve to be angry?

He stayed out almost all night! He went to have a beer with the guys, which I was fine with. I asked when I could expect him home, not becuase the time mattered, but just as a reference. So that I would know if he wasn't home be this time I might need to start worrying. He said in about two hours he would be home. That meant around 11:30 P.M. Okay, that's fine, anytime would have been fine, just so long as I know what to expect. So I put the baby down and go to bed. Next thing I know my eyes pop open at 1:30 A.M. and he is nowhere to be found. Okay, no biggie, he probably lost track of time. So I call him. No answer. Alright, I think, they are probably in a loud place, he didn't hear it, I am sure that he will call me back. So I lay back down and flip on the TV to keep myself awake while I wait. 1:45 - no call yet, so I try again. No answer. 2:00 - Still nothing, another call, still no answer. He never misses a call and not call back almost immediatly, so I am starting to get worried. No answer and no call back for over 30 minutes now. He has probably had a couple of beers, he could have been in a wreck or picked up on a DUI if he drove after too many beers. I don't even know where they went. I don't have the numbers of the guys that he went with to see if he is still with them. I am panicking. What if he got killed in a car wreck. I am praying the whole time that I dial the number one more time. NO ANSWER!!! Now I am a mess, scared sick and freaking out. Do I call the hospitals first or the police station? What if they havent had any calls or anything that match his description? Wher is he?!?!? I push redial and call one last time - "Hey babe." like nothing has been going on. Like I haven't called him 5 times and texted him (which I never do). Like I haven't been crying and praying and worried sick!! He and they guys went to get something to eat. He forgot his phone in the car. He just can't get why I am so upset. It was no big deal. ARGH!!!

So, do I have a right to be angry?

I think that I do. I feel that I have every right to be mad and stay mad for a while. Of course, I know that the staying mad part is almost impossible, simply becuase I am not one to be able to hold on to angry feelings indefinitely. I just don't like to be mad that much. So in lieu of staying angry for awhile maybe I could reserve the right to bring it up in future arguements, when I am once again angry enough to hold it against him. That is definitely possible. Especially since the next arguement will probably be about the very same issue and therefore it will be a relevant peice of evidence proving that not only is he inconsiderate, but he is also not truly sorry because if he were he wouldn't continue doing it when he knows how upset it makes me.
In fact, if he would just show a little maturity and consideration for others we could avoid conversations like this altogether!! The most agrivating thing about it is that I tried to make a point, by doing the same thing he TOOK A NAP!! It didn't bother him at all! He could have cared less that I was gone for hours without calling him, or letting him know what was going on. So what do I do now? I have tried explaining the problem to him, and I have tried showing him what it is like. Nothing works!

There is nothing more frustrating than the person you love doing something that you cannot stand!